Let's get together! Our Dream!

no music, at school

I'm in gym class, but the patheticness of having to go to some diet website is made up for by being able to use the computer. On the plus side, I found out that according to my daily calories, I'm burning twice as many calories as I eat and I am, technically, somewhat anorexic. Oh, fun. ^_-

of course, it's so off from what I actually eat...^_- Fat may not be beautiful, but I'd rather be three hundred pounds than ever, ever, ever be like my gym teacher.

Thanks a lot. I wanted to see who would remember -without- me prompting them. Ah, well, I really don't care, all I'm going to be doing then is studying for mid-terms. On the other hand, you can all wish her a very happy birthday when it's a wee bit closer. I give you much love, dearest, and I'm here for you if you ever need to talk. ^_^ ::hugs tightly::

Yeah, yeah, so I missed something. I knew you were one of Sharyn's group, too! Heh. ^_^ I haven't met either...you're too lucky. ^^

more later, class is almost over. Wish me luck in bio...inner mitochondrial membrane, right.

~Reebie wandered off at 10:25 a.m. on Thursday, January 9, 2003~

Horie Yui - Fake Fur

One of the nice things about being friends with Fuu-chan is that we normally have the exact same taste in guys, which means that we get to drool over them equally.

The downside to this is that when we disagree, it makes me rather paranoid about my own taste. ^^

Hurrah! you got Sandman! Let's see, I gave Junpei-kun volumes 7 and 8 today...I'll give him 9 and 10 next week, I think. His favorite is Destiny, for some obscure reason...he thinks that Destiny's "cool." Grr. He's a perfect Destruction, too...his size, and that he writes poetry. ^_^

This guy wrote some really messed up Daphne and Apollo limericks.

more when...er...ever. ^^

~Reebie wandered off at 09:47 p.m. on Wednesday, January 8, 2003~

Goo Goo Dolls - Slide

K-twin, Lan-san, the videos came! ^____^ I'm probably going to sneak a couple of episodes a night, and Fuu-chan's coming over next Sunday. ^^

My entire family seems to be in a bad mood today. I woke up to an argument, and my brother growled at me this morning...actually growled. ^^ My parents are both being bothersome and barging in on me...today is one of those days where I wish I could lock myself in my room and avoid all family contact whatsoever. Unfortunately, I don't have a TV/VCR in my room. Or, come to think of it, a computer. Sigh. What I do for my addictions...^__^

You know, just a few months, I felt like...like every feeling I had had to be discussed with my friends. Every conversation, every look, everything...I shared it. Because I didn't trust it to me alone.

Over the past few months...although I've grown closer to a lot of my friends, I've started keeping things inside again. It's not out of a lack of trust in people, it's just that some things, I think, I want for my own. I don't know how to stop it...or even if I want to stop.

~Reebie wandered off at 12:51 p.m. on Sunday, January 5, 2003~

Fuu-chan came over last night -- she's sleeping on my couch right now. ^^ We watch some anime, including the last tape of Evangelion. (I missed the last four tapes, yet I still vaguely got it. I really liked it, actually. I think this says something for my mindfuck tendancies.)

It was nice. We stayed up until 3:50 talking. ^^

My brother's been setting videos every night to watch Sport Night and The Critic. They play at some obscene hour of the morning on Comedy Central.

On Christmas Day, my mother and I watched one of the only home videos we still had -- my second-grade play and a bicycle race my brother shot that summer. It was...nice...my family doesn't really have much of that kind of thing. I really don't have a lot of pictures of me when I was younger or home videos or anything...we just never did that kind of thing.

Someone -- it might've been me -- rewound the tape and left it in. The play, the bike race, my brother's horrible shooting -- it was all taped over for a crummy episode of Sports Night he's probably seen thirty times, would watch twice more, and then never watch again. He didn't even know what he'd done. I wanted to show the play to Fuu -- to laugh at -- and instead I saw...

You know, my family really didn't have a lot of home videos, and those that we have were probably ruined. And now we have one less.

And even if there's another copy of the play, it won't be my dad's, shot at a weird angle where he zoomed in on me when I was just standing on the sides scratching my neck. And there's no way to get back the video of Joel shooting the bike race where he went up to people and told them to "smile!".

Now, the only place I can store them are my memories. And I don't trust my memories, because I forgot those things in the first place.

~Reebie wandered off at 11:39 a.m. on Saturday, December 28, 2002~

Stolen frm Forlay-twin's...er, wait, this's the quiz Forlay-twin made:

What Theatre Geek Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

damn straight I am. ^_^

~Reebie wandered off at 12:03 a.m. on Thursday, December 26, 2002~

Serial Experiments Lain - Tooi Sakebi

Don't worry, dear readers: I finished all that I had to finish and didn't go crazy doing extra work. ^^

I saw The Two Towers last night with my dad. *spoilers ahead*

I think my rereading of the book interfered more than it helped -- I kept saying "waitasecond, aren't the Ents good?" and such things. Probably annoyed my dad to no end, especially since I squealed "you know who that is, right? It's GANDALF!" about five minutes before It Was Revelaed. Since I remembered the ending to both parts of TTT quite clearly, I wasn't expecting where it was going to end -- I'd expected it to be about a half-hour longer, and I was shocked when I realized "wait a second, this seems like an ending...it is! NO! THAT DOESN'T SOLVE ANYTHING!"

Even though TTT (really, that acronym sounds so silly) was about an hour and ten minutes longer than CoS, my bladder pressure was significantly less severe than it was for CoS. The first time I saw CoS, I half-staggered out of the theater as soon as they showed the outside of the castle and made for the toilets with Fuu-chan. During TTT, I stayed until the credits were over and the lights came back on -- and even then, I managed to walk out at a sedate pace. ^^

I just figured out a month ago that Merry and Pippin are color-coded. I feel so dumb for not realizing that before. ^^ (For those who don't know, Merry wears a yellow vest and Pippin's is dark green. Pippin also has a higher voice and a stronger accent.)

Am I the only one who thinks that Gandalf can get really annoyingly self-righteous?

The movie was good. The action sequences went on for a bit too long...but then again, I'm not very battle-oriented. See an orc die, seen 'em all die. Oh, and Aragorn's "death"...they're really overusing the "someone disappears then comes back to life" bit. Gandalf, Merry and Pippin (well, sorta -- they made us think they were dead, anyway), now Aragorn...I'm kinda expected Boromir to pop out and yell "I'm not dead!"

Speaking of Boromir, Faramir was surprisingly bearable. In the books, Faramir is just a more overly-righteous version of Boromir. In the movie, Faramir had some darkness, being a Man.

You know, I've read a lot about how Peter Jackson tried to buff up the roles of the girls in his films. How many girls -are- there in LotR proper? There's Lobelia Sackville-Baggins (who was cut out), Goldberry (cut out), Arwen (whose role was plumped up -- argh), Galadriel (who also was plumped up), and Eowyn, who has pretty much the same size altogether maybe slightly larger. Not counting mothers and wives and daughters who have maybe a line and elf-maidens sung about every other page, that's five girls total, one of whom has only about two lines but a larger part in The Hobbit, one of whom is really only really referred to in one chapter, two elf-women, and one girl who dresses up like a guy. Note a trend?

LotR is a very masculine book. I say this because it's true. I'm not saying it's a bad thing -- it just happens to be the style in which it is told and the people whom action centers about. LotR is about men, and it's about the things men do, and it's set in a time period which is totally separate from ours. It does not touch these "modern times".

Tolkien's girls are flawed. Rather, they're so unflawed, it's a flaw. Galadriel is just a big deus ex machina. Period.

Arwen's portrayal in the movie pisses me off, partly because it's inconsistent, partly because...well...she's annoying. In the first movie, she does this dangerous ride across the country which really didn't impress me because I was thinking, "god, what an arrogant bitch." In the second movie, she's just a weepy wannabe-consumptive who would lock herslf up in an ivory tower for her love. She's basically the incarnation of some long-ago elfen maiden, which is what locked Aragorn's heart to her.

Eowyn...Eowyn has always interested me, because she's cold. She does not desire pity. By the reckonings of the people of the land, she's unnatural. But she's brave, and she tries, and she loves...but her love is not returned.

I've always thought setting her up with Faramir is more-or-less a consolation prize, a way of tying up loose ends. You can't have the King, but here's the Steward. Have children together. Focus on your children, and your man, and the world you have to rebuild. And disappear, like you feared, into a vague litany of names...but be loved by someone who loves you.

And if Arwen's love for Aragorn was not strong enough to keep her in this world, would Aragorn have ever turned to Eowyn? I doubt it. It would no have been fair to either of them, she with her girlish crush, him to be with one he didn't love in the same way...

But I wonder. Who does Eowyn dream of? And if she'd had a choice, who would she go to?

~Reebie wandered off at 01:48 p.m. on Saturday, December 21, 2002~

Chrono Cross - Magical Dreamers ~The Wind, The Waves, the Stars~

I'm skipping school today, supposedly because (I told my mother) I'm sick and don't feel well, really because . . . well, really because I don't want to be there today.

I guess I'll work on my bio essays, or start prepping for the math SATs, or the writing SATs, or whatever version I'm taking next. Or maybe I'll start reviewing my history textbook on topics I don't really care about but will have to know come next May. Or maybe -- really, how rebellious can I get -- I'll do these things while sitting in front of the TV. Or maybe I'll sit in front of an open document processor and wait for hours, but not write a single word.

Maybe -- why not -- I'll sit in the lotus position in a darkened corner and wait for the world to end.

social bloggage at some undisclosed point in the future.

~Reebie wandered off at 07:52 a.m. on Wednesday, December 18, 2002~

AiM - Kimi to no Mirai

...damnit.

I was just getting into a good self-pity mode, and then I had to help comfort someone else. So, dear readers, my self-pity streak is contained for now. You may all sign in relief.

~Reebie wandered off at 10:26 p.m. on Sunday, December 15, 2002~

Lord of the Rhymes - The Lord of the Rhymes

get down with your bad hobbit selves.

This weekend has been utterly unproductive. I have to write my English essay still, and finish those scholarship essays...ugh. Maybe if I write in here a while, I'll get inspired to write...

thanks to Rick-kun, I found two old AniFic writers' blogs. Heya, you two! ::hugs:: I was reading an article in the Inquirer today, and the (really bitchy) writer was talking about the different values expressed by the backs of children's books. "Some [children's books] even express crass commercialism (K.A. Applegate's Animorphs series, which has in the back of each book 'order yours before it's too late!')" Not a word about that was inserted by the publishers or how there's powerful messages on good and evil, or about the nature of war, or even the funny bits. I loved the funny bits.

considering the series has been over for over a year and a half, I'm surprised it was mentioned...still, it pissed me off. What an irritating woman. ^^

but anyway, that wasn't the point I wanted to make. ^^ Considering, say, the HP fandom, or the anime fandom, the Anifandom was really young. I started reading the series when I was nine, I got involved in the fandom a year or so later...being 13, 14, 15 seemed so old to me. 16 was practically another generation.

I don't remember when I grew up from there...but I guess I must've, somehow.

~Reebie wandered off at 04:39 p.m. on Sunday, December 8, 2002~

Adam Sandler - The Chanukah Song

Yeah, I'm an Adam Sandler fan. ^^ Eight Crazy Nights was great, mostly 'cause it was a freaking Chanukah -musical-. I want soundtrack. If said soundtrack exists. ::pouts::

I got my hair straightened. PH33R M3. But I'm not giving out photos anymore. ^^

you are freaking amazing. Although I wanted the yaoi, personally. ^_-

talking about suffixes...I find that I'm really fond of the idea of suffixes. I like the idea that you can tell a person's character by how they react to others and how they refer to others -- and, because of how much I liked suffixes in Japanese, I started taking much more careful note of how I used nicknames and spoke. I definitely notice more...the people I feel more comfortable using nicknames for, I tend to also be more affectionate towards...especially if I've made up a nickname for you. ::blinks at Fuu-chan:: sometimes I call her more by Fuu than by her given name...what was it again?

still...while I like the idea of suffixes, and I use a lot of them online -- mostly -san, I'm a very -san person -- I don't really give out 'sibling' names too easily. Throughout the, hell, nearly six years I've been online, there's only one person that I've developed a really close siblingish relationship with -- close to the point of saying "yeah, my little brother..." in my classes.

I've had a lot of friends whom I've acted sisterlyish towards, and several friends I'd consider part of my family, but only two or three whom I've ever given sibling suffixes to...it's an honor that should be awarded sparingly. ^^ Mostly 'cause if the other person doesn't like it, you end up looking like a twit...in my younger and much more freakishly fangirlish days, I once said to a girl I idolized "can I call you my oneesan?" and she responded with something like "er...I only call my REALLY REALLY close friends oneesama..."

what a diss. ^^;;; sadly, it's true. -_-;; I'm better now, though!

(although, I too would like to be called -sempai...^^;; well, maybe. It would be nice for someone to genuninely respect me enough to call me that. I feel like I've been felling into the sempai/kouhai relationship with one of my friends, though...I'm a year above her, and so I help a lot by telling her about my school situation and stuff...)

~Reebie wandered off at 10:05 p.m. on Sunday, December 1, 2002~